The word
friendship brings to mind many people, places and memories of the past. I was painfully shy as a child which made it difficult sometimes to make friends. I was an army brat, moving every two years and having to start over time and time again making new friends. However, through that shyness, I learned how to observe people and their behavior before rushing into friendship. As an army wife and as an adult, I found making friends easier but continued to remain cautious as before.
Five years ago, my husband's company transfered him to where we live now. The first two years we lived in the boonies and there was no one to make friends with. By the time we moved into town, I was lonely and desperate to have a friend. Lonliness and desperation can cause a person to throw caution to the wind! That's what I did anyway. I watched and observed and saw the red flags but chose to ignore them. What I saw happening in their other relationships, wasn't going to happen with me because I was a true friend. Well, I might have been a true friend but they weren't.
Even though the friendships are over, the hurt and resentment lingers. I really miss my friends I left five years ago. I miss having a close friend.
Nothing but heaven itself is better than a friend who is really a friend. ~Plautus
It took me until 45 to find a true friend. I have had a few, all betrayed me, except for my current one. We need to remember, though we have had bad experiences, that everyone who has come into our life served a purpose of some kind, even if only very temporarily. I really try hard to see the glass half full.
ReplyDeleteI married the only true friend I ever had. He is the only one who stayed with me and put up with my faults and obsessions (and probably paranoia) and never betrayed me or left my side. He has been my friend for 47 years and my husband for 42 of those years. I have been blessed to be able to say "I love my best friend."
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It is hard to find a true friend, but don't give up! One will come when you least expect it.
ReplyDeleteI had some friends over the years and they were all such a disappointment through the years! I am sorry to hear it happened to you...
ReplyDeleteOh I am so sorry.......I feel the loss of a friend I thought would always be there as well. Then I realized while I obviously called them a friend - I hadn't gotten much back in return. Just yesterday I passed her in a parking lot and she yelled, "Oh I've been meaning to call you !" My thoughts were..... " For the past six years ??? Let me go home and wait by the phone !" LOL !!! Such is life people will come and go you can only do your best.Internet (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteAwwww Annette... I hear you! A true friend really IS a rare thing. I hope you find a safe, true friend soon. It stinks to feel hurt. I'm sad with you. If you ever move to South Florida, I'll be your friend :)
ReplyDeleteI was really really shy growing up too. It is hard to find a true friend.. I think it happens to most of us, where some will come and go as we travel through life.
ReplyDeleteRelationships of every description are hard. Having spent 50 years on this planet I have experienced a lot of rotten friendships but also a lot of good ones.
ReplyDeleteAs much as I hate to admit it I do believe people come into our lives to teach us something about ourselves. So, sometimes when that lesson is learnt they/we move on.
Wishing you well in finding friendship but don't forget about your Blogger Buddies, we're here for ya :) T.
I was a "military brat" and also painfully shy growing up too. We moved every two years or so. I hated it, and it WAS so difficult to have to make new friends over and over again.
ReplyDeleteWell, I just have to say that I had lunch today with a wonderful, true friend who I miss terribly. :) You! Our little group from Bel Forest is truly special and I am often sad that we are now all over the place. I hope antiquing was fun with Erin. Lots of love, Danielle
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