Point Lookout, St. Mary's County, Maryland
For many reasons, I knew about half way through the trial period that I didn't want to live there permanently. Michael on the other hand loved this new location and wanted to stay. So we did. I was not happy. Here it is eight years later and I'm still not happy. I would move back to where we were in a heartbeat.
The first two years we lived in an apartment 40 minutes from town. I couldn't wait to move closer to civilization. I was lonely stuck out in the boonies. I did a lot of going back and forth to the old place to see the kids and visit friends. I missed them all so much.
We bought a house and moved to town and within a few months I decided to go to work. The new neighbors weren't very neighborly and I figured a job would get me out of the house and I would meet people and finally make some friends. I got a job at a gift shop that rented spaces to artists and crafters to sell their creations. I loved that job. It lasted two years. I had to quit due to health issues. I had a great working relationship with my coworkers but it never progressed to more than that.
It's been over three years since I left the gift shop. I'm still lonely and health issues still abound. It was the decision to stay here that changed my life as I knew it. I would be lying if I said I didn't resent Michael from time to time for making that decision knowing how I felt. I certainly didn't expect these years of my life to be full of lonliness, depression, pain, and depending on food to keep me company. I guess the good news is that I'm ready to tackle these issues and get back to a life that is happy, productive, and fulfilling. If I don't do something now, I'm afraid I'll give up.
xo Annette xo